ok i realise tat... mayb horoscope has wad it is in someone. for eg.. i m a taurus.. ya obviously i m stubborn. tis is very obvious in me. lOlx and erm another ting i realise is tat i enjoy freedom. u confine me then i'll rebel n hate u. if u compress my free will i wun abide by u anymore. tats me... i juz realise this side of me. usually i dun bother lahx... i will do many things i regret later.. almost immediately. but i guess i still wun say sorri.. stubborn ma. not my nature. i cant help it. its only after the whole thing tat when i reflect n realise.. y didnt i say sorri??? mayb i juz too ashamed or juz wanna keep my face... u get wad i mean rite?

anywayx i've been loosin my worksheets .LoLx haiyo. i duno y i so absent minded. oh well... currently i m juz livin life in its face. i duno wad i'm doin also. i rather walk aimlessly n stay alive then care abt everything n get hurt. call it selfish. but its me. ya... anywayx i duno wad can i do to help ppl lohx.... if i cant help might as well not care? sometimes i also wish tat ppl would take a look at my life too instead of drownin in their own. hmmm.. they dun understand tat sometimes i do get fed up when they only talk abt themselves n then i bear with it. bt when i talk abt myself they piss off and say i selfish. or they juz redivert the convo to their lives again. oh well.. it could b juz life rite? sometimes i duno y i cant juz shout... "TALK TO ME ONLY WHEN U HAVE STOPPED BEIN PISSED OFF!" hmmm well.. i guess i cant... no matter how piss i will b too.

i miss the time when i was laughin n juz enjoyin everything. but mayb cos tat period was juz past my sadness so i gave off everythign n started to juz laugh my head off. however.. now with a bz life i cant do ANYTHING. hmmm not like last time at least. we cant always b happy ba... i duno. mayb i lost part of myself again.. left it off somewhere or with someone n hasen gotten it back yet. but i'll live ba.. no death in my mind... i dun wanna die yet. i still remember tellin my best bud.. i wun die till i meet my soul mate. lOLx.. i must b gettin old.. thinkin of the past... oh well... i juz hope to b like my old lame self n get ppl around me all happy =D

i forgot to add my fav poems:

i miss those times

where happiness shines

instead of this

dark cold mine

i m lost
all alone
with no place

where i can go

i wish for heaven
i wish for light
i hope to bring
the stars tonight

if i could c
the future can shine
then mayb i will b
happy all the time