sometimes i wonder if life really have anything to do with horoscopes.... i duno. when i c it... sometimes mayb it does. i envy so many ppl for wad they have. to the extent i will get mad over some small things in life tat mayb i cant accept. is it wrong? m i suppose to change for them or move on with my life n not look back. till now no one has answered my qn. these broodin wonders in my heart as i slowly pass the day by. i must admit some ppl do make my life better by bringin smiles yet sometimes they make me somber as i think of y they fail to meet my expectation. i m still dreamin i guess. dreamin of a perfect world for myself. i m selfish i admit. hmmm i duno. whenever i c happy ppl with so much to b appreciative of, i juz wish they would not take wad they have for granted. esp those close to me. when i c them toss wad they have around so easily i feel this urge to juz WISH that they will juz loose it. mayb then can they learn their lessons. however, i cant. for they r my friends. my "friends". its really farnie how life works. till now i'm still amazed at how it has been playin me. i duno. m i childish for thinkin stupid stuff or m i gettin more matured by thinkin so much?

i m lost yet again

at wad i wan

where i shld go

wad i shld do

is my dream all a false hope

which i bring catastrophe upon myself

or a chaotic world where i pray hard to recover from

n yet still continue to wish upon tat star

i duno wads missin in my life

or wad is happenin to me
i m tirin from my continual swim

so i ask myself

how many ppl actually know me well

n would care less abt themselves

i count to myself

one finger at a time

n i found out tat it is none

for they dun even know wad colours i like

or my childhood dream

n my favourite spice

no matter how many times i repeat

they will nv know

cos they dun bother

abt me

yet if u ask me abt them

i can probably tell u alot

for i have observed them in my corner

hopin to know them better

wad purpose is there for me to live

if all i do is suffer

as a taurus i believe

happiness is the most impt thing

i will stop dreamin

stop strugglin

with the crushin waves on me

n let myself drown

into the endin darkness