oh well.. i wonder how it feels like to go home aft being with ur friends to be landed with a bunch of harsh words with ur mom... ya.. its my fault ba. hmm... who ask me so horrible. rite? i guess in life u cant have everything. i must take it for wad it is. n again i m reminded of my past... my old self n my disappointments. most of all, my parent's disappointments. wad can i do? i cant change myself... i dun wanna change. i'm enjoyin life too much to stop. wad shld i do?

mayb my life has to many distractions.... i duno. wad can i do??? i feel so lost. i cant describe wad i'm feelin now. even without anyone special in my life i feel so lost n empty... mayb tats y ppl dun like to study. becos we gotta b nagged. but as today's listening compre, we gotta learn to understand our parents feelings... haix. my mom already says i'm gonna fail all my As.... Grrr... i'm so sad n pissed off.. n disappointed... i m speechless of my life. its too complicated for me to unwind.

sometimes i wish i knew

wad was missing in my life

is there a special reason for me

to suffer in this silent way

is life but all an illusion

where reality is hiding somewhere

the real life where life is happy n fun?

i feel so empty

like a sealess ocean

or a blueless sky

no music can comfort me

no life can bring me back

into this world where i was born

i wish for death

i pray for life

i hope for beginnings

n for endings to die

if it were a fairy tale

the demon must be my nanny

for i live in hell

where i can nv understand

wads happening to me

to make me become wad i m

unless i curb temptations

unless i stop the time

if only life was like the heavens

so bright n fine in my eyes

i still make tat silent wish

for dreams to come true in my time

but nth seems to be happening

in this place

of wordless mines