have u ever wondered?


when u were sad,
who was e first person u turned to?
when u were happy,
who was the first person to approach u?
when ur whole world turned upside down,
who helped u clear e mess?
when the ground gave way and u fell,
who held on to ur hand?
when all the stars dropped from the sky,
who helped u paste them back?
when ur tears were ever flowing,
who offered u the hanky?
when e whole world turned its back on u,
who smiled and said he's always there?
when u were alone on a crowded street, who sat with u and shared?
when u felt betrayed, hurt or angry,
who had always been there for u?
when ur love was lost,
who showered their care?
when u needed someone juz to b there,
who had been ur frend?


u ask me all these i'll tell u i noe not e ans. for how i know when had i been angry or sad or happy. how can i noe wad happened when my whole world gave way? mayb there were ppl there, but i wun noe, cos i was too blinded to c. but yet i hope everyone is appreciated in some ways somehow. i wanted to put down so much of my thts here, but x= took me so long to get here tat i forget wad i wan say. i'm those that once its out, its not coming back, unless something happens again. so i need to write them down.


have u eva wondered y u blog? for myself.. i guess its juz to hope to touch ppl's lives ba. in e sense tat thru my poems n all, i can reach out to some ppl. mayb they wun feel lonely cos they noe tat there r ppl goin thru wad they feel. but face it, we r all lonely ppl =) my experiences, i hope to let ppl appreciate wad they have even more. i wanna appreciate my life too. tats y i write them down, so at least i wun forget. ^^ but of cos its nv easy ba.


i realise that i nv learnt how to write poems. in e past i nv could u noe. guess cos i was too shallow. i was too pampered, too spoilt to _stand anything deep. even now i m still shallow, but at least i try to listen n _stand more. tats wads e difference, only when u listen more than u talk n commment n complain tat u can become a better person ba. cos u noe more things thus u can watch out. readin all my old works makes me wan puke.. LOLX so cliche =x well, not cliche la.. but ... no meaning at all. =) hope now i can also make a difference in my own life ba o(^-^)o