i guess its true when they say leave everything to god =) lolx sometimes its not i dun wanna say.... its juz tat i have too many things to say. how is it possible to say it all? also... how i noe wad to say? so many things seem so insignificant to others... do i have e right to say them all? its not a secret.. i keep none... juz tat i dun say, cos i duno how, duno wad.. too many things r buried there inside my kokoro, due to being trained to shuddup. cos i learnt that talkin it all out is useless.. impossible? but its true =) when u hab ppl arnd u who doesnt open their ears enuff... u slowly learn to shuddup. so sorri guys, cos i dun say many things i not keepin them from u... i juz thinkin within myself tats all. ooo, so now... i m learnin to b unlike them. i wanna listen as much as i can. u may say.. wun it build up in ur heart? wun it become a burden? sometimes it will, sometimes i admit i'll feel heavily burdened.. but i noe... after a while, it lightens up cos i helped someone carry it too =) i m not alone. tats my encouragement. while typing all of this now... many thts r flowin into my mind.. many images i wana let ppl noe, let ppl c... to share with everyone.. but i duno how... lost for words... feeling tat its a waste of time to type it here... for thts r sometimes best unknown, hidden. yea.. u _stand ba.. i hope... previous entry... all in jap.lolx part of my feelings then. lolx dun expect ppl to know wad it means.. but nvm de la.. dun need words to _stand sometimes =)


it takes me

1 sec to get angry
1 min to react
1 hour to cool down
1 day to reflect
1 week to understamd
1 month to sort e feelings
1 year to put it all behind
but an eternalty to realise tat all i had to do
was to juz smile n say "i'm sorry"