★ Saturday, May 06, 2006
tired.. death
8:56 pmminor.
24 hrs camp, with only 1.5 hrs of sleep
lolx u can say its quite bad.... actually was intending to blog alot.. but now.. like nth to say. lOLx only tat we all feel SO TIRED like dead logs ^^ as e cliche goes. lolx whenever we had time it was sleeping. even if its juz 10-15 mins. too shacked. well e whole thing ended at 3!! ^^ which was mayb a relieve. throughout e whole camp i was counting down to its close. haha but oh well, in b/w i learnt alot of new things, challenged my mental n physical strength. i can nv forget at 12midnight of e camp. we were playing games. although we juz finished our pt ex. lOLx all of us were pushing our physical strengths n did 3 matches per team. end up everyone got e lame gas in them n got everyone high ^^ even kasim was so cute with her "boom" lOL! =D
although i was thinking close to death thru e next morning at 5.30am exercise n run, I M STILL ALIVE! ^^ haha the whole team was so motivating some how. we all tried our best to pull thru. no matter how hard it was. stopped a while mayb for some, but endurance till e end. so if anyone says tat floorball's lousy with its team members who cant take any PT... pls, approach coach n ask him train u personally ^^ lOlx n u'll c wad we've been thru. i m not complaining much, except for e not enuff sleep part seriously, all of us were running e rounds like a machine, mindless cos mentally dead due to no sleep. which somehow made e run easier to handle. but i can feel tat all of us r improving, e rate tat we r going... we're so different from last time. even for myself i noe my stamina has improved, mayb due to this camp, but it did improve. n i'm quite happy with tat. =D
major.
life, i learnt alot from u. u tht me many things, sadness, angst, power, greed, horrors, love, and fate. but i wanna teach u something too, forgiveness, learning to give way, forget, dream, live life to e fullest, imperfection, staying happy, accepting, tolerance, and understanding.
no matter how harsh life seems tat when ppl r happy u nv r, but when u r happy, ppl nv r. so dun envy, dun regret, dun hold grudges. no matter how hard things go, forgive, understand, forget,we r not perfect, so dun seek perfection for things to b as u plan cos u aint perfect too. accept others, cos u r e same, nv forget tat part in life. dreams r diff to achieve, set reasonable goals for urself... dun go beyond wad u really cannot do. or u'll die. so pls... treasure ur life. dun b selfish n think only abt urself. its nv so simple, its always a complicated web. stay in ur dream world, but wake up once in a while n c e real horror to keep ur life in check. lastly b honest with urself, dun run away, yet dun hold on tight.
its nv wad we plan in life, so juz wish to b happy n live it to e fullest wadeva u can. we wun always b happy, so no point dwelling in e sad issues n make our lives forever miserable. dun b envious tat others can b happier than u. its juz cos they have let go of things tat r their burden. u shld do so too, rmb tat, life... =)
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