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9:27 pm

kya~~~ > < went for a job interview today. lazy on the details.


LEAVE ME ALONE!!!


grrr... lately not in a good mood. ok at least today i am not in a good one. no wait. its more like just NOW! in the EVENING that i m not in a good mood. been looking through some stuffs again.. and... i feel so sad.. *yesh sadd is my over abundantly used WORD* listening to Evanescence's My immortal.. almost cried. the mellow music got into my head =) i'm human. i always ask myself. y cant i be like that.. y m i not so lucky. y cant i have this n that etc.. makes me sadd. i try so hard.. work so hard... waited so long... get pressured... y cant i get what i want. and i end up with the question. Is something wrong with me? well... is there???? you tell me.i dont know. i can predict. one of these days i m gona cry again. really... feel the tears flow endlessly down. feel the pain right at the core... feel the loneliness.. the emptiness swallowing me up. all these as i sit alone... waiting still for something.. something that'll never come. y... y is it happening to me...


haix. i dont know. *ignore my sighing* maybe now that i am no longer working i get more time to think? LOL get more bored so weird thoughts pop into my mind? get all emo again? *shrugs* the real me is emerging again? m i ready to face the world? my mom told me i need to learn love. m i ready to love? i dont know... i'm still waiting... and i wonder y... y is it me... and y is it not me...


since last week, i've this constant feeling of something tugging at me... at my heart.. what is it? i dont know... like something that wans to get out... but cant. am i finally going to be normal? =))) what does everyone have that i dont.. answer me.. i dont know... i keep thinking and thinking... i wonder what the fuck's wrong with me. i dont feel good. and i m not turning to anyone.. loL! weird? yes.. i think it is. wanna kill myself.


okay enough nonsense... ignore my long boring post. going to watch gaze's live again. hope the head banging will shake the bad things out n let good things come in.

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