★ Monday, June 04, 2007
today
11:08 pm自分の世界は自分で見つける
-Peace Now-
Found it in the fashion mag my sis bought. i love the words somehow... =) totally agree with it, be it not only in fashion, style or loves.. but just basically who we really are. ^^ yup yup =)
nothing much, only tt i heard 12012'll be in florida in july for a live! omg... y cant they like stop over at Singapore or something??? > < i wan tooru's drumsticks!! hahaha~ haix. waiting for japan trip... maybe i'd be able to grab Kai's if i scream hard enuff... x=
its weird... life's like "smooth" for me now and all... yea. so... i'm trying to enjoy it! yesh! stay happy! i vowed to be happy =) - Tooru.
to the issue of commiting suicide, i feel that i should say it out. Well.. all i can say is that.. if you ever feel like killing yourself or ending your life, maybe you should think is your life happy. Cause i feel only people with good lives will think of suicide. Cause they're lives got boring all of a sudden, and have nothing to bother them, so suicide is the way. People with not so good lives will wanna live on to find true happiness, struggling through their tough edges just to achieve that. So... which side are you on? are you the weak side that gave up on the world, gave up on yourself, let your pessimist side take over? or the other side that tries to prove all the baddies wrong?
you might say now... yea... i'm on the pessimist side, so what, i've given up on myself, please leave me alone.. i dont care to be happy, no such thing exist. Yes, i agree with you. i feel the same way. but i feel death is not the reason. i've thought of killing myself alot of times too, standing at the window, looking down. but now, when i think about it, i dont want to die, and never really wanted to. i'm afraid of death even. have you ever thought of that? its not the end, no matter how bad or down you feel. you just need to keep ur mind off things that hurt. if you keep going back to those hurtful things, stay away from them, do whatever you need. stop yourself from thinking if you have to. the main line is... Your will power is the strongest thing on earth. If you have no will, there'll never be a way. so the question is no longer i m this or i m that.. its.. do i want this... and how badly do i want it.
think about it..
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