★ Thursday, September 04, 2008
11:02 pmI think everyone but me seems to be happy about the new job =) not even when i got it on the spot. everyone seemed happy lol~ but me~~ i wonder why.. =x maybe there was this small voice speaking to me at the back of my head.. telling me something that i already know...
how i wish right now i could just reject the offer... to say no~~~ to live freely a little longer. i m only 20~~ this is no excuse... but its true... i dont wanna feel tied down... i dun wanna be independent~ *sighs* there's so many things i cannot do anymore~~ why~ =(
suddenly feeling more stressed instead and somehow this inner feeling's starting to stir... finally feeling the full impact of life~
pretty sianx =) somehow i also duno hwo to react anymore lol~ but i know i have to face it sooner or later~ i tink the only way for me to live on like this is to actually not feel anything. so no matter what happens in future, i wont be affected by it... > < i dont wanna feel crushed.
time for law~
今も生きるの意味を探す…
★ キキ様でした ☆
