★ Sunday, August 24, 2008
2:06 pmbefore i post about natsu matsuri yesterday~ LOL~ i cant help but laugh~ =x
because~~~ i realise i m mocking someone~~ LOL! shooting the person all the way~ and best part i dun think the person knows it!! ROFL~ *call me mean n all but ya* =P
for me i realise i m who i m to almost everyone. i may not tell people what i m going thru, my past present n future etc, but ya~ what u see me as is what i m~ *most of the time* =) n i wanna be the sort of person who can bring smiles to whoever is with me at any point of time~ so i hope i managed to fulfill that bit =)
i cant stand fakers~ fakers in the sense that they lie with their eyes wide open, hiding behind the computer screen, being someone they r not~ *yes i have done this before BEFORE, but not anymore~~ =)* gives me no right to complain~ but i cant help it but laugh at this person~ why cant u juz be urself n let people accept u as u r, rather than trying so hard and end up w/o anyone at the end~ lol. most of the people i know are true n real~ so thats okay juz this small group of people~~ being all so inferior about themselves~~ cos i guess i did it before~ *n felt ashamed about it* i hope no one would fall for the same thing!!! obviously i was WRONG~ > < lOL~
so now~ yups~ i shall continue laughing, as though i m laughing at myself XD
but no matter what you do, even if u create a persona for ur own life... one thing i think shouldnt change is the facts~ u shouldnt lie about things~ not saying is one thing~ but saying it to a lie is another. u dun say people misinterpret ur words~~ thats not lying~ thats assumption u say it out in black n white that's pure lying~~ and i hate liars~ detest them~ saying things and doing them altogether is never an easy job~ but i try to say n do them~ *so far 70% is accomplished* the list will go on again and drop to 50% and rise up to 70% *i hope* but for those who say all the time n not stick to it~ x= its different if u know u cant, and say u wan to do something, as though u r REALLY GOING TO DO IT, and u know u can, just that it is not the time, and u say it, and when it happens its a <3 blessing~ and when u know u cant, u say it and at the end u tell others that u cant so dun expect anything. there u go~ 3 scenarios~ go figure! =) LOL~
*i m having fun typing this* XD i guess for those who know me~~~~ know that i will try to stick to my words~~ so i guess i fall under catergory 2 n 3~ yups~ =) when i say something i wanna do i will try to do it~ LOL!!! thats my weakness n strength~ i m who i say i m *most of the times* and i'd bare myself fully *most of the time*~ i m blunt, direct n honest~ if u cant get my hints~ then~ too bad? *cos they are always right at ur face* LOL~ but then there are some SMALL few whom i have to be careful wad i say =)))
ahhH~~~~~ come shoot me if u wan~~ i have my faults~ but i m talking about human nature un general unless u tell me u not human then XD or unless u feel guilty about the above~ XD LOL!!~ ROFL~ =) *sadistic mood turned on*
freezing cold lately~ > <~ wheets <3 the weather~ heat SUX okays next post shall be about last night's NATSU MATSURI!! ^^
lastly, i hope all my frends would be honest with me too =)
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