★ Monday, June 30, 2008
12:10 pmno matter how much i try not to think about it~ i guess i still feel hurt~~ =) truth be told! previous posts has been removed~ hopefully before anyone has seen it yet =) somethings are better off AWAY from the public.
yes talking about hurt~ i happen to have feelings of a NORMAL human~ and i really shouldnt be working so hard to keep my side of the deal~ since its like, i realise i m trying so hard to keep something to benefit one parties that isnt part of the contract~ but on the other end~~~ other then those once in a life time re-assurances i get slapped back right at the face.~ yups, full force. ^^ and get hurt cos only one person is working hard. lOL! the other jus break promises after promises... till its no longer a promise to begin with~ and then i wonder if u think... what makes u different from her? just another liar? =)
treat others how u wan others to treat u~~~ so~ retribution? ^^ LOL! i duno.. maybe. still feeling very tired... was hoping to get something changed, but no matter how much i slap myself to keep myself awake it doesnt seem to be working. maybe i should just really heck it all. since it makes no difference. or another alternative would be like.. doing what some people do when they're about to faint... x= cut themselves so that the pain will keep them awake~ i wonder which path should i take... hMmmM~
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