★ Thursday, April 19, 2007
disheartened
11:10 pmlol feel kinda lousy right now... y.... cos my mom dun let me go on monday!!1 wait she said... i dun care u.. u wan u go... *tts after the long talk* lol seriously who'd wanna go then??? o.O anywayx she was sayin wad everyday go out meet frends... need control myself = =??? lol~~~ weird huh???? can comprehend yet cannot comprehend at the same time... kinda feel sadd abt tt. duno y.. feel hurt abt it... =) mayb she still dun understand me yet. or mayb its true tt i m juz takin advantage of e little freedom tt i have? e more u wanna hold on to me... e more i'd wanna slip away from u. applies to everything.. =) gonna hammer myself on e head till i snap out of it n wake up!!! hahaha knew tis was comin... life is nv smooth. sorri hk~ looks like next week fri gotta postone liao =) ps ppl > < gomen nasai ne? i dun feel good abt it either lol cant help it when one has a really poccessive mom....
omg... y do i feel so painful there... right at the center of my life..
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