suddenly feel like coming here n TYPE lol. but type wad? i seriously duno ^^ lately keep dreamin x= duno good or bad sign LOL. omg so farnie la. went out today n came back around... 9 ++++ ? dad was back le cos can c e lights on x= suddenly saw e hall light off. hahaha all of us e reaction was like... omg = = he's gonna latch e main door n we cant get in n we'd have to call him = = n we were like Zzzz sianx... dreading.... hahaha so farnie. somehow duno y.. my heart was like hammering inside... although alrdy not first time le. but then still feel my heart jumping... like anticipating. six sense says.. its gonna b locked its gonna b locked... mom went first to open e door. n TADA~!!!! it wasnt latched. HAHAHHA i was like *phew* omg la... e suspense. so horrible ^^ still feel like typing...


anywayx.. before my sis KICKS me out of the com *i hate hols she hogs e com all the time.. hahaha gives me no private time to my own =) loL~!* and i always end up alone in my bedroom to think to myself... ^^ my own time =) listenin to rock music... readin manga... day-dreaming *night-dreaming* then erm... juz thinking to myself.. or stare at nth? ^^ anywayx... lately feel a little... downcast?? i duno. empty missing something ^^ like something out of place ba. lol i think alot of ppl around me feel de same? like something not right. but cant place a finger to wad it is. i feel tt if a person doesnt think too much.. then tis feeling wun occur.but then a person thinks... tts when tis feeling appears n disrupts peace ^^ haha. really la... no matter where i go now or wad i do. some part of de day i feel tis ache in my self.. like mayb in my heart??? *mayb i hallucinatin e pain* but then ya i feel airy n cold there LOL~! =) ya call me drama queen ^^ but i can type wad i like here.. so... say wad u wan ^^ words stuck in my head.. let me let them out.


a small pond on a muddy patch
my legs into the endless depth
an unknown presence and unknown figure
watching from around the darkened corners
as i thrashed my legs in the cool silent waters
the childish flickers of carried markers
left ripples upon the reflective ponders
somehow it was a peaceful slumber
like the night of the hanging starlets
where the moon was at its last quarter
e time is changing
the days r growing
the life is numbered
waste no more this lever
i'll b alone forever...




a silent heart
an empty mind
the passing sounds
of mysterious lights
the lone feeling
in my soul's window
will linger.. forever in my tearful sorrow