i had a dream yesterday. a short one, but nonetheless a dream, tt will stay with me for all of eternalty. once again i was surrounded by darkness. late at night, time i wasnt sure. who notes e time in dreams? the image loomed into view, i was at a cemetry. yup, its those type you see in movices, leaveless trunks, skulls on e floor, crementorium nearby, tombstones everywhere (like the phantasmagoria pic) i was standing there in the middle of everything, alone. a spade was in my hand. i seem to b furiously working on something. digging, digging and more digging. i could feel the beads of sweat gathering at the top of my head. somehow i wonder y the hell m i working so hard for. another object popped up in my mind. i noticed a tombstone in front of the place i was digging. i took a closer look. it was my tombstone. somehow i fumbled. y e hell m i digging my own grave? n so furiously at tt. i coudldnt stop myself in my dream. panic filled my mind juz then. i read e words on the tomb... my tomb "Leaving the world in order to find peace. may God grant you release from the devil and forgive your sins." speechless i am i tell u. peace.. death is peace... finally, i saw myself falling into the empty pit, a home for maggots, earthworms, centipedes, all those disgustin creepy crawlies tt i hate, disgust, urgh~! however, somehow juz lying there on the soft mud seemed right. i found myself closing my eyes, a feeling of calmness washed over me. the over hanging dark clouds finally gave way and it began to rain, the huge droplets, such a comfort to my soul. a cleansing. the waters washed mud onto my body, the coolness, a happy feeling. and soon i was fully covered... and i felt an easiness in my breath. i felt... home. m i finally to b received where i belong? from the outside, i watched the dark clouds disperse, and the cemetry calm n normal, as though nothing was out of place. the perfect paradise...