omg i m so afraid.. so afraid of e door opening.. so afraid of e door slamming. no matter which door it is now... i'll still jump n shudder n my heart will thump so fast.. so scared i m... of this... so cowardly m i.... if only my feelings n emotions do not get e better of me.. if only.... but u wun _stand y. i wish to just let out e whole truth spill out everything... but i noe.. no one'll listen. i juz pray now tat someone will _stand.. bt after wad my mom n sis have gone thru i cant trust anymore... i cannot deceive myself n live a life of faking everything.. i cannot let myself b in control anymore. cos no one's on my side... i seriously wonder who can comrehend...