i was thinking back on how much i wanted to do well in everything.. but now again when i think about it i tink its really not easy.. infact its very difficult.. i give up liao seriously.. i think no matter how hard i work now will not bring me anywhere... cant make myself move forward.. nothing goin into my empty head.. haha haix. keep forcing myself also useless seriously.. seeing a counsellor may help ba... hope so. but tis is my life after all. i plan to fail ALL my subs.. so pls... dun say anything. my mom's gonna bar me n all i duno then they all gonna argue... then haix its all my fault juz cause nth can go inside... n i cant focus.. >_< hmmm now i may seem as though i dun care abt e future but when it comes i think i'll juz explode.. haha so i guess i cant blame anyone but myself ba. but e thing is.. whenever a person do something e most impt thing is can u accept e consequences? i hope i can ba... although its really hard to keep being strong.. now its no more abt being strong its abt enduring... can i? i'm sick of this whole issue... no excuse to use u noe.. but then i cant help but to blame it on others but myself.. i wish i knew my way again... mayb if i keep searching i'll find it somewhere...