★ Wednesday, September 19, 2007
typings
10:52 ami knew something was wrong the moment i opened my eyes from where i lay on the bed. The feeling thugged at my heart, as though it knew what was going to happen.. but my body... it moved on its own, oblivious to all the warnings.
No... dont go.. dont do it... i opened the door.. and as i predicted... it happened. Something crashed onto me... i couldnt see what it was, it happened to fast. all i saw was a face, an evil grin... i didnt even know who's lips they were before my eyes closed once again.
Although i had lost consciousness from my physical body, but it opened up the feelings of myself. i felt all the emotions my life had experienced in a go, as though i was swimming.. no drowning in the waves that attacked at me. The irony was that... these waves.. they all belonged to me. I felt lightning strike, it missed me by an inch... but my skin was scorched from the impact. i couldnt scream in pain, i lost my voice the moment i lost my physical body. It was unbearable... yet, the moment i realise it was the pain of the flesh, it didnt hurt anymore, for i couldnt feel anymore... it was all the making of my mind. i saw part of the flesh in my arm gone, it wasnt a nice sight, but i wondered if it'll heal, even though i was no longer alive.
i turned my head.. and saw something... it was dark... and partially hidden. there was a black veil covering it.. maybe from the bright light. Willing my soul forward, i approached it slowly... it was a dark case, like an old trunk, hard and solid, and locked with chains and more chains.
What is this... Curious, i lifted a finger forward, about to touch the small object. Before i could even come close, something flashed again.. shocked, i froze in my position and this time i saw something... my finger was on the ground, but there was no blood, since i m only a corpse now.
Undeafeated by my curiousity, i moved forward more this time... and i came closer this time, reaching my entire hand over the box. again there was a flash... but instead of seeing my hand chopped off, i found a huge spear caught in my torso.
What the.. i tried to break free and remove the spear, but i couldnt, as though i was fixed there. Using my hands i tried desperately, but it was too heavy to move. As another second move by, i caught sight this time, another spear coming at me from the trunk. it struck at my body another time, and another one and another one.till i fell onto my knees from the weight that had piled onto my lifeless form... Was this how i was going to die? Pathetic... useless and hopeless... without even able to find out the truth nor uncover the truth?
i cannot give up so easily. i edged closer, crawling on the ground. For once i was thankful that i could feel no pain... slowly, a step at a time until i reach a few inches from the heavy-looking object. Suddenly, everything turned black! i couldnt see... and it was then i realised that a spear had went through my eyes and it kept coming till i was sure my head was probably rolling on the ground. But i didnt give up.. not now that i am so close... with a hand, that i presumed was badly damaged i touched the lock and in my mind recited a few words... although i couldnt see, i knew the chains disappeared, and the lock was no longer there.
A creaking sound was heard as the box opened slowly... i didnt regret not being able to see, since i could feel what ever was in there... the slow pounding, the heavy breathing, the struggling that was going on. Inside me somewhere, i started to weep, and i hugged the chest close to my tattered form. I knew this thing.. it had been in me since the day i was born... But i wasnt afraid anymore, no longer oblivious. It was time to make things right. A wave of tiredness washed over me suddenly, and i felt myself losing its state of consciousness too. But it was okay... i knew everything would be fine... Now that i'm no longer .. alone...
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