命不是苦，只是很累而已
めんごくせよ！はは。私今の命は本当に疲れるです。

heh... =) life's so tiring u noe.. lOLx nth eva go as u plan. seriously i'm sick n tired of it already... sadd.. mayb not so ba. cos i think alot of ppl feel e same.. but i dun _stand y they force themselves thru it. *shrugs* cant stand some ppl actin their way thru life so thou e world owes them a living.. haix =)


tiredd ya.. mentally physically and emotionally i guess. =) too many things happening .. abt to happen... happened. i dun wanna describe it all here in words.. mayb images will b clearer to _stand =)this image has been on my mind for a while.. i wun write it in poem form.. cos i think its too hard to fit it all into a poem with nice rythmn.. so i'll juz describe it to u ... =)


a medium sized black balloon floatin up into the sky
halfway thru it got only smaller and smaller
all around it was.. surrounded by bright colourful aired balloons
floatin higher and higher
the others sat on it.. e poor soul
as if squishing it wasnt enuff to hold it down
it could hear e mocking the silent screaming
only to feel entirely bitter from inside
the motivation.. to prove u wrong
tat one small black balloon is wad is all
stop laughin at it.. stop mocking it...
with ur filthy words of haughty greets
the hypocrisy it can feel the unchallenged pride it'll reveal
but already e black soul is losin its power
the helium gas seems to have fallen under
no one seen to help it up
cos all were too busy to juz keep goin up
a invisible hand... reaching out
a rush of cold wind seems to have struck
slowly juz... to soar again... slowly.. but one day..
it'll make it there ...


its nthing much.. =) juz an image in my mind now ba. alot of things i noe i cant say out.. cos i know u'll nv understand.. cos u r still stuck there ba.. =) in ur own world in which u create. haha =) dun blame anyone u noe. its juz tat i hope no one will blame me for not sayin many things. i'm still stuck in my own world.. strugglin to keep out ^^ but then ppl do get tired after a while.. n they juz wanna give up. we all keep something inside.. if u wan ppl to noe it.. dun hide it.. n make it seem like u wan e person to feel it for u.. juz let it out to feel better u noe.. for everyone. i realise tat sometimes smiling blindly is better than not smiling at all.. becos.. to let ppl worri is worse than worrying urself ^^ i'll try to b positive abt life as much as i can... try to survive ba n do my best. juz dun push me dun rush me dun ... nvm =) lOL! i dun wan touch on something here. hope all those tired abt life too will buck up and start living.. =) not livin life.. bt living for ppl around u.. for wad u r meant to b.. juz to b happy ^^