e lost feeling.. is currently my best frend.. =) lOLX! not a good frend... omg now i'm contradictin myself.. not really lost.. more like stressed out.. cos i duno how to put in my best in my studies.. e yr juz started... n 3 mtths later comes a major test... wad to do??? must pass.. dun _stand how??? no choice must study.. study hard but noting goes in how?? DIE... lOLx duno nia... hell tired with studying.. cos i dun wanna face this stress... havin a freakin headache now.. cant study anymore phy.. although i m NOT prepared AT ALL for tml = = ya.. die nia? oh well.. hope no one'll kill me x= LOL!


anywayx... STRESSED OUT! duno how to relieve it ^^ seriously.. i'm more of tired.. if only i could SLEEPPPP foreva... =) lOL cool rite.. dun worri i'm not suicidal.. i told myself i dun wan die lliao ^^ lately havin weird dreams... HAHA i dreamt of x= something... good n not good placed into one la.. duno y i suddenly have such weird dreams... haix.. scared of them.. cos if i can dream it.. means i noe it'll nv come true for me =) so ya.. sadd x= LOL!


ooo... read qy's frendster testi.... yup wrote her a new one too = = then read my old one.. e one i wrote last yr... e thts were so different.. e way of phrasing e speech =) lOLx guessed i changed alot from then till nw ... good or bad change i duno.. but i think i lost part of my cheerful self.. becoming more n more solemn n dark n sadd =) slowly beginning to accept life?? mayb.. haha readin all these diff time typed things shows me how much i've changed n my thts nia... same goes for e blog... =) memories.. trapped in time ba...


life's so sadd with all these pressure n stress.. if only e govt sees more of these... as in.. how much e kids r dying now more than living... instead of lookin at delinquents.. how abt normal kids who cant cope with 18 yrs of the life??? only 18 yrs n dying = = life's created by e society... society created e battle field.. e eliminatin one.. where e weak die n strong survive.. =) i didnt noe tat was e purpose of life in e first place.. haha i tht we were made to all live together happily la! diaoooxxx =) hahahaha


oppsss didnt mean to write such a LLOOONNGG entry.. i miss my cheerful self = = hAIx.. =) LOL i'll better get back to my gp.. dun wan let miss charles down again!