i guess there are people who do not know abt wad happened in dec last year... my sis locked up my com.. cos she doesnt wan me to play e com.... for long hours... ok ya i noe i m horrible.. but i got my maple addiction under control... but i couldnt stand her lockin up my com with a password.. i mean.. ya... cos i will b pissed rite? part of my freedom gettin locked away.. i have nth to do anymore.. n e more i think abt nt being able to keep in contact with my frends easily n not able to juz relax n b on my own in front of e com makes me mad... so i reformatted e com in Jan n erm.. ya e password's gone.. so now ya? my sis wanna lock up e com again. of cos it was my mom's idea.. either she cant stand not being able to control my computer addiction, or she juz cant stand me being in front of e com.. i noe she wans it for my own good.. but hey! i wan this special freedom n privilege. i duno wad else can i do anymore. its not tat i m not doin my work when i m infront of e com ya.. i still do my work. i juz tend to hear music when i doin it tats all..

i dun wanna b mad all over again.. as in angry. this small thing seems to b pissin me off alot.. i duno y.. i juz wan something where i can go to for myself n on my own tats all.. is this small privacy tat hard to achieve? i mean ya... i need some peace once in a while u noe.. n for me its talkin online or juz surfin the net.. usually wad i do to relax. haix.. i also duno wad to say la.. sometimes i really wanna retaliate against my mom.. cos we have so different views.. but if i do..i noe she'll juz breakdown.. cos seriously i have nv really gone against her.. only juz dun listen to her once in a while n follo wad i wanna do. n she calls me trouble when i juz dun listen. imagine if i totally fight back n talk back against her.. wad will happen i wonder.. haha. tat'll b a sight.. sometimes i guess its not i dun dare.. but more like i juz dun wanna disappoint anyone at all.. if u get wad i mean ya? haix.. i also duno wad i wan liao la.. i mean is this wrong? this way of thinking... so far alot of things i do is not cos i wan.. but wad my mom n dad wans... doin wad i noe they'll b happy abt. n nt doin things tat i noe they'll not b happy abt... but not cos i love doin them.. so ... i really duno... haix.. going to b 18 soon n i'm still under their clutches... i can feel my blood boil... mayb i m nt e only one.. but i dun request much. i dun go out like my other frends... i dun hang out.. i dun smoke dun take drugs... juz do wad a normal student would do.. is tat wrong? m i being such a freakin bastard by doin such things, things tat my mom do not like? hell... one day man...