lately.... i duno wads up with me.. gettin really emotional.. i duno wads e cause.. i ask myself alot of qn.. izzit cos i love u? or is it cos i m deceiving myself. but i cant do anything abt it. cos i cant stop u, cant hold u back. i can only stand aside n watch, let u go. cos it was my promise n ur wish. i duno wad i wan too. is it companionship? or is it juz to feel loved... its a blessing yet a curse.. for ur mind is filled with sorrows and wory and sadness with blinded tears that fall aimlessly down. if i could choose i wun choose a diff path cos i guess i love u. no matter wad u may think or feel, its ok ba... i have faith in u. i hope u have faith in me too. its tough for me.... n i m sure it's tough for u too. although u wun say it. i dun blame u. sometimes i wan alot.. yet sometimes i dun wan anything. all i wan now is most prob for u to b here with me... how long must i wait for tat day? foreva??? my patience to wait is there if there is hope. but u cant promise me... so i m lost yet again. dun play with me if u r out for fun. life is all giving... yet at the same time.. dun take for granted wad others give u... haix.. nvm. forget it le lahx... i dun wanna say anymore.



* there is always this hope.. yet at the same time i know that there is no hope *