sometimes i wonder... y shld there b hatred? izzit cos u cant take it tat someone out there is better than u. i duno. i feel tat sometimes i dun feel happy cos someone's better than me. there's this competiveness. i duno how to say lahx. but whether it leads to hatred... i dun feel hate. but i feel sad, cos i m competing with my good friend. n it turns out to be unfriendly competiveness. tats wad i cant take most.u gain some u lose some. u cant have everything in the world, although i want many things, but not always things will go ur way. i like bein the way i m. no point living a life full of hatred n then the person in view doesnt even give a damn.. y waste ur breath and energy? y nt juz b happy together n make ur energy worthwhile? its ok de ba i tink.... u can always learn to accept someone. no matter how tough it is, its like the working world. sometimes u gotta give in. or mayb u gotta give in all e time, ur heart hurts, ur head's abt to burst, but u still gotta carry on with it de rite? cos its wad u gotta do. i wish tat ppl wun do things cos they have to. bt its impossibe in this world. they say tat impossible is not impossible. but yet... i say it is really not possible. if not life wouldnt b like it is now. sometimes gotta think of life in a diff angle. so wad if i think differently from u... so wad if my view of this matter is different from u? r u open enuff to accept it? y do u think its not possible for this thing to happen? life is unexpected. u cant expect it to always b wad u wan it to b n tat u r always in control, cos u r not, n nv will b. u gotta let each lead their lives... sometimes ur view of one ting mayb like this.. yet when it comes to others, its ok... its not a prob with them. y? cos we r all different. u can only share ur experience but as to whether the end result is e same or not depends on the person themselves... not cos its like tis with u.

i must say all of us have been thru alot.. n tend to judge others, whether its their life of their personality. its a fault that we all commit. i must admit i do it too... but its not a good thing. cos who wans their life to be controlled and laid out for them... who wans to have a path to walk, following wad u r told to do by someone? i m sure no one. cos we all wanna follow our own road, discover for ourselves wad OUR own life has installed for us. its e curiosity tat kills the cat. but yet, a cat has 9 lives... its ok to discover horrible sides of life.. juz gotta pick urself up. but then of cos i m sure u dun wan ppl to be there spelling out ur future for u.. rite? i dun wan. i can tell u tat now. n as humans we r all imperfect. i accept u for who u r... i expect u to do e same. there is no such thing as i cant accept this of u.. or i dun like tat of u. y? cos there is always such a thing as adapt. we were all strangers b4 we bcame friends. so there must b something that led us to become friends rite? for me.. when i have a friend... i guess no matter how many horrible sights of them i c.. i will accept them for who they r... although sometimes in my mind i say... i cant stand it anymore. but at the end of the day, i think... this person is my friend.. i dun wanna lose him/her. so i'll juz have to bear with it n look at the good side of them. we all have one, u juz gotta examine it. u cant b prejudiced tat this person upset u once so u not gonna care abt the person again. in the bible... forgive n forget... love others b4 urself... forget is always hard.. but u ask me... hey have i eva upset u? i'll tell u... no i dun think so. no matter how many times u make the same mistake.. y? cos i dun bother to rmb them. i only live on our happy memories... its not being ignorant. its juz tat y shld i c ur horrible side when its ur nice side tat i like? y let ur weaknesses hinder our friendship? i mean i have my weaknesses too. i m sure i have millions of them... but yet, if u can accept me for who i m, y i cant i do the same for u?

if life was short. then we gotta make the best out of it. i live by the principle, live life to the fullest. if u r not happy, then dun do it, for u may juz die tml n regret not having an extra min of happiness... dun let sad things hinder u. dun think so much.... dun think abt how ppl have hurt u. cos u surely would have hurt ppl b4, but appreciate how ppl have took care of u in life... its always hard.. cos its a fault of being human. but once u have accepted this fact, life'll b easier... cos u dun expect so much out of it anymore.... dun do things u'll regret in future... i believe tt u shld do it, cos u'll always regret not doin it later... trust me on this. n u'll hate urself for it. after doin it, u wun regret...u'll juz think of it as memories... nt something tats botherin u. mayb its not thinkin b4 u do, but then i dun wanna live life with regrets ba. if u cant accept tis point of me.. then i also nth to say...

there's a reason for everything, as there is a reason for everything that we do n for everything tats happened. n i would say its not fate.. its cos of factors tats triggered the reaction. but then.. once its started... it cant b stopped.... till the end. but its ok de.. sometimes u get hurt, ppl dun bother abt u.. but its ok. really. y? cos u gotta accept them for who they r. u accept the fact tat they cant accept u. its ok de... =) its not fate.. its life... n its always harsh.. but u gotta accept it n move on...




我每天都会问我自己，你在哪里？在等着吗？

我会等着的....到永远.

deAr ~ ^^