keep out.

1:30 am

sheesh. i blogged all my internal thoughts in the other blog unintentionally. in eng of course. typing that long essay out in jap would have killed me.

but mainly i know... ever since that February~ that many years ago.. i had lost already~ lost...

and now i wonder where my will went... going to search for it again.

i wish to be happy and to smile from my heart, to know no worries to live life to the fullest. i just wish to be satisfied with what i have.. i dont want this darkness to suck me in anymore. if you're part of that darkness then i will force myself to part with u. u've been holding onto my heart for too long. it's about time i move on.

about time to let light shine on me so my insides wont feel so heavy. i will hold on... to what once was, but never will be. i will hold on to everything, as memories, as images that will flash past that wont affect me, that wont hurt me. i will smile and joke and say words of joy. because i have found myself once again... to be someone i will be satisfied with..

my life.. dont meddle into it when u dont mean anything. i will survive.. like i always have.

because.. i'd always be me.

† 其々が選んだ日々の中 †

*24.4.1988*
*RMIT - Bachelor in Accountancy*

*Visual KeiのNeverLand*
*Japanese*
*Black|Red|White*
*Dolly*
*The GazettE*
*my endless list of inspirational vk musicians =)*

++ VisualKei の NeverLand ++
. Visual Konbini
★ NO LIVE ♪ NO LIFE ☆　明日も楽しいみたい　v(＾┏┓＾)v
Ｍｙ　Ｄａｉｌｙ　Ｒａｎｔｓ

*tHe-CrApPer*
*ZhU ZhU*
*ZeNor*
*HimUra*
*HaNa-ChaN*
*MiRa-ChaN*
*みらら*
*SuKi*
*GaRcIa*
*TaLib*
*UmMi*
*aLvIn*
*Aya-chan*

Ended.
The station.
me me me me and MORE ME!
Fashion theme.
off the record...
To become!
Break.
Shit
Morning!
i remembered~

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