★ Friday, May 02, 2008
12:39 amit takes 2 hands to clap... =) dun assume so much. i have my patient limits too. yes. limit break... =)) i shall do as u wish... without even needing u to tell me... cos i know u got no guts to. as much as i would like to do make something happen.... one side wont work.. ^^ n if u're juz trying to test n see how much i can take. congrats on getting it. congrats on achieving wad u wan right from e start. i've had enuff... this time i m serious... about time i get a grip on my own emotions n thoughts. it was a mistake. from the start to the end. only i was the stupid one stupid enuff to believe everything u said... cos there was trust tat took so long to develop. esp on my side... to think tat u're only human too makes me wanna laugh. retribution.. lol karma~ =) n as a human... we all make our mistakes... dun need to worry abt getting forgiven for the pain u've caused. cos... for u i'd forgive. its like a repayment to those stupid times i've brought trouble upon u. for forgetting n moving on... it'll take loads of time which i believe i have. for trusting u again... it will be easy the next time again... but it will also be hard. n i know u wont give a shit for there wont be a next time. yups. u're juz equally like me.. childish right to the core. LOL~ the point to prove ur childish-ness? the incapability to take up e commitment... always only running away thinking people will juz run after u and u complaining abt the hard time chasing them away. ya right. think again... think 3 times more... i wont be the stupid one anymore. this incapability makes u a minor.. XD by law~ LOL!
u'd never know how much u had nor appreciate them till u lose them... i always believe in this... but it still happened.. =) maybe it wont apply to u... lol... if u dun understand this... then good luck n have fun in ur life okay. shows stupidity yet again... n this differentiates the two of us... the differences... ^^ once hidden is showing... our true natures taking over us as we protect only ourselves in any case. such inhumanity... such sadness in it.
time will not make u grow up... its like being 7 years apart.. a long way to go. a tiger cub thinking it's big enuff to hunt a deer but all it can do is only growl to itself pridefully while waiting for its mom to bring back the food.
such rantings though i know its my own fault... yet... its bothering me.. so i'd get it out.. cos i have to =) n u shld know too.
ahh calm envy... *sings along* how appropriate..
ps. i juz read something tat i agree with so much tat is related to my thoughts n this post.. =) so much so tat i can smile when i look at it~ ^^
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