★ Sunday, March 18, 2007
saddened me...
1:01 ami duno.... lately.. my mood's been down? how shld i say.... i cant say tt i m lackin of things LOL~ in fact i think i m overflowing with them ba... material wise... i've been spendin $$ gain. bought a full set lolita for my y.sis since her day coming on monday. dun ask me price lOl =) but ya... got it for her la. ya... =) quick say me nice sweet sister! lol kiddin = = got a goth punk bottom. e skirt quite short x= shared price with e.sis. gonna do some adjustments to it ba if not she dun let me wear =)
wad else... my NIL live comin tml =) ... excited... u c. i've got it all ba... givin n all =) but yet i tell u honestly i not tt happy ba lOL~ in fact today when i go out, my mood was quite sullen. i duno y also...tried drinkin starbucks, goin to my fav places... buyin stuff for ppl... buyin somethings for myself.. finally i got my long stripped socks... net stockings = = ya i noe... but i didnt feel any better.. e music was ok.. but it became a bg music soon... seriously i duno wads up with me. mayb i juz need more sleep?
hahaha. tired of it all ba. tis fucking routine.. loL~ learnt jap today... not bad la =) quite nice. haix. cant wait to lay my hands on a guitar... somehow i guess i m juz not satisfied with my life... but i duno wad is missing... some spark ba... restless.. moodless... i duno. suggestions? help? i had tt spark 2-3 months ago... guess i've lost it now lOL~ only my dream lives in my mind n keep me goin... other than tt.. nothing else is there. i wish tt... tt spark can come again... feel like sheddin some tears. mayb i've become hard n cant do tt anymore. or mayb i juz lost my senses. bad mood u noe... > < blur n cannot focus. haix.
huh LOL~ tis spark... haix... no one can help... i think... =) i duno. nvm... leave me alone la. bB~
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