★ Tuesday, February 20, 2007
今の私は寂しいくない！
10:50 pm
i m back here... my turn to vent out =) was lookin at 12012 - Over lyrics. ya tt e lyrics of e song tt's playing over here in tis blog LOL somehow i find me n Wataru got link ^^ LOL we write similar lyrics! LOL gonna paste e translation for tt song over.
Over....
Lyrics: W. Miyawaki Compostion: T. Enya Translated by MissLeliz
I stared up at the cloudy sky.
I can hear someone's voice.
When I close my eyes and listen carefully, it echoes in the sky - an endless song.
I'll plant the seeds of the future
With truth and the soil of my atonement.
The sprout stretches high into the sky, escaping through the clouds to the ends of the galaxy.
I scream, scream my prayer to the sky without ever reaching it.
Though I desire an end
To these days in our world so full of conflict,
I'm right here, protecting such important, irreplaceable people.
In a whisper I pray, pray for compassion for my sins.
God, please somehow explain why I was born into this kind of era.
For whose sake do I share and endure the suffering of this era?
We're waiting for a blessed rain
Somewhere in this town that's all withered up.
Our thirsty hearts change shape, resenting and hating each other.
God, if you so desire it, you can sacrifice this body of mine.
Oh Mercy, pour down upon this world, upon this world, at once!
God, please somehow explain why I was born into this kind of era.
For whose sake do I share and endure the suffering of this era?
Search for the meanings of eternal sin, eternal days, eternal love; these are my last partings, my last decisions, so please tell me about them in the end.
God, please somehow explain why I was born into this kind of era.
For whose sake do I share and endure the suffering of this era?
Change the volition I strongly swore in the depths of my heart into a guide post.
For whose sake do I endure the rail that others continue to walk upon?
u can choose not to read e top chunk btw =) its juz for my own reference heehee. my own thoughts la.
hmmm lately i cant write much. at first i tht tt was good. but now i realise it is not good. cos i've got too many things inside tt cannot come out. its like after eatin alot u cant digest it all properly n it wun come out of ur body sort of thing? i duno wads happening to me la. could b cos i m fallin sick soon? but haven been havin e appetite for food. i can juz starve myself n i feel fine. gettin sick of lookin at food. LOL i noe... how is tt possible huh? but its e truth. told u there's something wrong with me..
my feelings now.. i juz wish.... tt someone can hear me vent out my childishness. seriously.. i've tried... but they all seem to b ignored... n end up i listen to others more than i talk? o.O n then u say... y dun u juz shout... LISTEN TO ME PLS!!! n i'd tell u.. then wads e point if i have to force u to do tt? cos u dun ask me to listen but i open my ears big enuff to fit ur whole soul n body in. its irritatin me... cos i feel tt i m not heard... mayb tts y now i love to sleep? cos i can listen to myself then. i can b alone n dun have to listen to anyone else.. u duno how it feels... to b warped up everywhere n all u hear r voices but ur own. i live with my music.. n tts e only thing tt describes me.. tt'll listen to me. tt'll b with me when i m lonely, when i m sadd, when i cry, when i m down, when i juz need comfort, when i need warmth.. nothing else can promise me tt. n u come n say... u cant live w/o love, u'd find someone soon ^^ n i'd say.... its not with the waiting. i'e given up waitin... cos i look at humans n i find them despicable. liars on their own. i know so many ppl, but yet i can say none of them i can really let them hear me out. y is tis so? i guess i've given up trustin in humans in all. n e music... created by imperfect humans juz seems to fill my soul. how ironic is tt?
nnow... y do i choose rock n not soothing pop to ease my soul? cos its e song. pop sings all love... lyrics tt mean no sh!t to me... rock music rules! ^^ they scream out my anger... *ya i admit my angsty self has returned* their music portrays my feelings, e rhythm, the beats, the individual notes =) i love it all. n e lyrics.. u can say less.. it describes me totally =) so i guess vk music is my best frend? *shruggs*
u c... bet u nv knew tis abt me.. on second thts.. bet u dun wanna noe me at all.. for i m juz another boring selfish person. who cares if i even left this world? no one cares.. i m juz another tiny miserable soul. too insignificant alrdy... i juz scream in my quiet corner but no one bothers to hear, their enthusiastic shoutings over covering my voice. tts how it is. i hear u all.. but no one hears me. =) so i turn to e sky.. n i think abt it.. God has also forsaken me alrdy. tts e saddest n i m alone with the devil now.. but no one cares to pull me back. cos i feel more welcomed there then here with the fake warmth tt ppl show to me. wad love is there? it doesnt exist. not anymore. the truth hurts... but to accept tis pain is better than making myself fall into more disappointments with humans. so sadd hor? LOL but its ok ^^ i can live with it.. i can live alone with it.
tts how things r meant to b.. n will always b.. i'd juz stick to my own world.. no one cares.. n tis line will always repeat in my mind.. cos nothing else exists to over-whelm them.
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