well.. let me start off on a more philosophical note.
wad do u tink is e hardes to do in life?


my ans... for myself... i guess is to b happy... n make others around u happy.. keep e laughter in e air when right in ur head its all dying, crashing, totally rotting. yup. not tt i'm complaining abt ppl around me. but hey... i guess sometimes its really tired tt i've to keep making everyone happy. cos for one.. i cant bear to c ppl i love sad n down =) so... mayb its juz my personality? its not a burden.. but its juz hard i guess... i aint e perfect person... so i aint e perfect angel...


have been doin some thinkin again lately.. =) seriously.. i wonder wads wrong with me.. i think something's seriously wrong with me. haha wad??? i duno wad it is also =x or mayb i'm e only blind one. trust u say? so y dun u juz tell others wad u feel? u tell me. i tell u y... its not cos i dun trust. its cos i noe no one hears =) everyone's got selective hearin in them. n i admit so do i. so at e end of e day.. ppl get angry with me.. get pissed off with me for not listening cos i've been born with selective hearing. =) yup.. ppl complain abt me for being an imperfect person. irony of life yet again. n its not NoT trust. i tell u.. cos i've tried it b4.. no one can help me with my probs too. also... i dun wanna burden others. i know wad it feels like to b helpless to ur friends. n wad it feels like to b burdened with ur own probs n have to carry others' to help lighten e situation.


i guess my shoulders r already weary of my own burden... carryin too much made me fatter ^^ hahaha cos i grew shorter? =x kiddin. but well.. har e har e har.. i'm still me.. so forgive me for my moodiness tis few days. juz tt alot of things r happening... well.. in sch n at home. alot i tell u. most imptly.. they r all in my mind. omg = = feeling giddy as i m typing tis ^^ hahaha cool. will i fall flat on my keyboard 2 mins from now?? o.O i wonder seriously. ^^


juz let me ramble here k.. i promise i wun do tt i when i talk with u guys ^^ so dun feel any guilt nor burden. if not it juz means i'd have to close down my blog n make it a private one ^^ lolx =P


lastly.. b4 i end.. i guess i need to say tis... cos its bothering me... well.. if u dun c me acting right these few days... is cos.. my didi... lost his memory. dun ask me how nor y. i wun divulge those. e saddest part is tt... i only knew it today... cos... i didnt use e com for one.. n cos his frend didnt dare to let me noe. yup. i wun say its not affectin me.. cos it is... n such things i wun lie. for those who think i'm a jerk n a bastard liar... i tell u tt... these r nothing to lie about. feelings r feelings n they r e truths of a person's soul.


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sorri juz felt like cursing n swearing... so... u dun have to know wad it is = = feeling quite pissed ^^ hahaha kk.. take care ppl =)