ooo happi 81st to me! ^^ happy.. mayb touched ya lOlx =) nv forget frends.. n wad they mean to me.. even if i dun speak it out. so ty guys =)


dun really wanna spoil things... but today i guess i've got things i wanna let out =)


have u ever been hit by a ball continuously before? it juz keeps hittin on u non-stop? haha i have =) e ball left many marks in my heart. nahx not heartbroken.. i nv say thinging abt heart being smashed did i?? lolx i juz said being hit.. due to loss ba =) wad loss... failure. e failure hits onto me. i guess sometimes is i'm too afraid to try... but after being hit so many times.. ppl will juz say.. hey go on! u can do it.. dun give up. those words arent motivational anymore.. =) sadly.. lOlx cos its only something tat i noe i can do.. or cant do. sometimes... its not e words anymore. infact.. sometimes e words hurt more than e fact =) failure.. of cos to me now is my studies.. e thing i wan put on top of everything else. yup. but have anyone ever wonder... if e person after being hit so many times will juz die on e ground? =) haha i duno. i'm like tis now.. givin up liao. too tired to push it away. i juz wanna run from e field n do other things to slowly recover...


sometimes i wish to say tt its my pride tat's keeping me alive... but nope.. its not my pride.. its all been sucked up by my injuries... its e love ba.. lOLX i'll miss so many things =) most impt e ppl. no matter how many times i dun say dun show do things i regret.. i hope to value e ppl around me.. =) hope u noe tat. i also love nature too much to miss it =) e wind... e flowers... e sea.... the rainbow.. e stars... e moon. all things who have kept me company on my lonlier nights =) my buddies ya? lOLx ^^ e best ears one can ever find.


lastly.. juz wanted to add.. we all keep secrets.. so... juz cos of a facade and a cheery smile ppl feel tat u r happy with no worries and wun bother thinkin abt ur probs anymore.. lOlx not being selfish but we all do this.. give n take =) juz hope tat ppl can b more sensitive in future.. juz cos i dun voice out much doesnt mean i dun really care... i juz chose not to say cos its my opinion, or there r things more impt than those =) hope u _stand tat point.


an empty white forest of dried wood
the brown branches of maple shoots
endless paths of fallen leaves
a green patch of grassy sea
on it a flower stood
its petals e colour of muddied creed
surviving on gentle treats
till eternalty it will bid