okIe.. i'm again.. from floorball n all.. from sch.. from my routine life.. kinda sux ya...i dun like it tat i have no aim.. everyday's like shit! u get wad i mean.. i duno where i m headed.. i come back like a piece of dead stuffed animal... n then life goes on... i find no motivation.. haix.. kinda depressing i guess.. but hey wad can i do abt it.. we all face e same probs.. =) but oh well... now i understand y ppl wanna commit suicide ya... cos life's too meaningless...


seriously.. i feel tired.. tired of wad??? everything! haix.. wad to do.. x= hm suggested i make find a bf like ruki a goal in my life.. lOLX! good idea.. but impossible dream.. haha haix.. as u said, things happen to us nv as we planned them to.. so dreams r always opposite of truth n reality... yuP. he asked me.. wads my goal in life. seriously.. i haven tht abt it.. n i duno ya? but now i decided.. i wanna live my life by interests and enjoyment, livin it to e fullest rather than livin life by rationality or practicality *ps.duno how to spell la* i feel tat how much money u make in life in future is not tat impt.. cos doin wad u like most is wad's gonna keep ur life goin n enjoyin it! u dun enjoy life cos u make more $$ than ppl... but u HAte wad u do.. = = get wad i mean? but sadly.. my parents dun agree.. they feel tt supportin e family n all is most impt... mayb it is.. but i really hope to enjoy everything around me.. haix.. selfish huh? but oh well... if everyone can do this.. i guess mayb life'll b more peaceful with lesser suicide rates. only if ppl can _stand each other more.. tt'll b good nia.. but humans have flaws.. we have to be honest abt our own flaws to b accepted by others.. cos... honesty brings ppl 2gether thru trust ya. haha wad m i sayin???? humans have faults.. n we r governed by humans.. x= so loophole in e society... therefore we cant complain... make sense? lOLx wad m i sayin again = =


oh.. juz to mention.. i placed uruha's pic! another member of gazette!!! one of e lead guitarists ^^ heee... siti "loves" him.. n his kissable lips.. juz wanted to know e opinions of u guys.. so i posted it up. .lOLx x= he's really pretty.. i can c his hourglass figure at times =x he's so skinny la! haha but his hair's really cool.. n when he smiles shyly at e camera.. he looks e best! ^^ i liked him first in gazette.... but later found ruki n kai to b better x= lolx.. bt truthfully.. i like them all... y? cos they r different from other ppl in e sense tat they dare to express themselves.. n i admire them for tat. bt other than this.. they r really normal ppl like u n me.. =) which makes us all unique somehow.. o(^-^)o