hana~

1:32 am

love is envyin someone huh~~~ means i envy no one? or i envy too much??? LOL! love huh.. back to tis topic. such a sensitive one~ n always the same qns pop into my head. y do we love... how does one love... wad is love... with the type of songs i listen to... love??? LOL!!!!


i always wonder wad made me love vk~ wad made me love angst, wad made me give up on love~ cos i guess its wad i've been experiencing ba? not r/s probs. talked with hk abt tis also ba~ in a world devoid of love from those closest to u... its hard to have expectations of love anywhere else too afraid to try~


to love is a blessing, to b loved is also a blessing...


guess i have neither? LOL duno... or i juz think i dun~~~


y is the human heart so fragile... y do u give in to honied words... when deep down u alrdy know the answer... y fall again when u noe u'd b hurt. y bring urself uncurable pain, unmendable wounds. y get urself cut... let urself bleed... when all can b prevented... y go thru all this pain, when b4 u alrdy noe tt making a decisive move will bring abt tis tragedy to urself. n... y complain afterwards, cry out unwanted,unloved, lookin for relieve... humans r farnie... we noe wad we gonna get but we still cry n complain later when we exp the pain we initially expected. when e fall comes we blame it on others... n live in self pity~ for these ppl... i admire u, i envy u. cos ur life must b good. cos u can spend time to think only abt urself. =)


m i giving myself an excuse to complain now?? LOL who knows... =) i express my expected pain too. but some times tis pain i dun bring upon myself. cos... they drop onto my lap when i nv asked for them~ till now no matter how much i try to ignore, to b numb... its hard.. cos it happens too suddenly... the fall too quick.. to hold onto something~ =) u noe how tt feels like? 99.9999% will say yes. lOL cos we all think tis way abt ourselves. yet the actual feeling each individual have is so different... we go around asking... can u understand me? y cant u understand me?? answer simply being.. I m not u~


msg across.. i m leaving such a long trail of hints n thts tt i hope u'd understand... but i guess its still meaningless =) appreciate wad u have... we all can but only handle a limited amount of pain.. do u noe tt? =) push someone... n they'd go away~ u noe tt? ^^ feelings r ur soul.. dun play around with them.. ur own or others... the wounds will b really deep.. =)


i guess.. even thou its written in black n white here.. u wun believe me. until u try~ n when u do... u'd juz make the same mistakes... all over again~

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*24.4.1988*
*RMIT - Bachelor in Accountancy*

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