★ Friday, January 12, 2007
u n me
12:28 am
= me =
i nv thought tt i'd stir with tis kinda feelngs... cos... i feel sadd... e sadness tt dwells with tis anticipation u know y? *pardon my y's cos everything done has a y to b answered* cos e disappointment always come... serious... n i've guarded myself from tt disapponintment eons ago... n selfishly hurt many ppl. knowingly / unknowingly. cos i didnt wanna feel e pain. another reason of my fear. i know only u csn understand wad i m saying cos of e sharings... no one else would know wad e hell i m talkin abt.
wad m i talkin abt = = Zzzz LOL one reason... cos i feel vulnerable now. tts y these words flow easier for me... i only wish for someone to take tis fear n pain away... lol if i continue e sentence it'll become my emo poems. so nvm. its a habit for me to talk in rhymes n poems n abstract anywayx. somethings still wun change... yes, i've changed... n i'd always b changing, for e fear again... tt someone'd b able to read me. lol u wana noe wad i'm hiding inside?? =) understand my words... n expressions n poems. n u'd find me ^^
i told u i'd b direct n M direct didnt i?
current conversations. relatively quiet, silence... lol but smooth, soothing, comforting... ^^ like being embraced in a warm hug.. LOL ok no mushy stuffs. juz an expression. hmmm now everyone knows how lousy i m right inside.. n not tt strong person u always c LOLLLL =) ^^ lalalalala...
work tml.. no later i shld b sleeping. feel tired but i know i cant fall asleep de. too many things liao. amazing huh. i think its cos i've got lesser troubles now so i m like NATURALLY letting such freaking emo take over me = = Zzzzz idiot...
goin sleep le la... dun disturb my dream... shhhh... しんぢ....awwww （笑）
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